Quiet

Everything is in silence, but the keyboards keep noising with the sounds of endless counts...

It's not that bad!! Especially when you are at work in a friday morning and you have absolutelly nothing to do... no work... everyone seems quiet busy and you are searching a new mp3, or apdating your profile on orkut...
I am being payed to count people, so where are all the people for me to count??

what does getting used means?

Now the things are sfter in work. Or maybe I am just getting used...
Sleep early is easier, so I'm less tired...
Still I don't know what to do when I have nothing to do: cleary I don't want to do the numbers, the excel stuff, conected with banks and money... i'm here in order to help Personal Departament (or whatever the bitish people name it) - do the payments, count people, jobs, not shoppings and money...
my boss is too busy to teach me sometimes and I am afraid to interrupt her so busy to say i have nothing to do... she is in place of the number girl...

how to follow what says my heart??

When I was young I wished I could be adult and free.

Now I am a grown up and nothing happened. As much options I have less I like to choose. More tied I feel.

Somehow I followed one path that's not my own.

Not that once I had one to chose for me, but make choices was lighter - just a question of will. Now I have so many dreams… and I feel now's the time to come they true…

I need money, but I need to keep sanity. I don't want to astray my core.

Once you chose a way it's much more difficult to leave it, because you are responsible for the people along, for the vaults you made, you keep attaching obligations and a knowledge, sometimes is not what you wanted to know, and you may not find the biggest questions for your soul…